Real Let Down

Tonight is our second round of the Real Discipleship at Hope.

Last Wednesday a few of us met with a large group in the South Hall.

There, Craig gave us a survey of Genesis and Exodus.

For the larger portion of the evening I was tuned out, doodling on the pages of my notebook.  I sat trying to ignore my irritation with another situation, but it only led me to ignoring Craig’s teaching as well.

When we left that night I was disappointed.  I wanted a deeper understanding of the Bible, not a skimming.  So with this evening being our second night, I’m not quite sure if I’ll be returning.

I’m trying to determine if it was entirely my mindset that affected my liking of the lesson or if this really isn’t the platform meant to teach me.

When I left the women’s Bible study on Monday, I felt reenergized, excited, and satiated in having finally found a place to learn and grow on my walk in exactly the way I wanted.

Because I don’t like the Real Discipleship as much, is that a clue to disengage and focus on my Monday night study?  Or is it something I should push through and give directed attention.

God, please guide me and let me know if I should continue on with this class.  I want to learn about You to the best of my ability.  I don’t want to force myself into something and wind up negatively affecting my walk with You.  Please show me what You want for me.