Prayer

Dear God,

I'm so sad right now. I have several moments where I feel my face crumple and I want so badly to cry, but I can't. I want to crawl into bed and just bawl until I fall asleep. I am so stressed right now. My life isn't anything I wanted it to be at twenty-five. I wanted to married. I wanted to be loved. I wanted to have a job I enjoy. Every day that is slipping away from me. If this is Your will, please just hold me and guide me, because I feel so desperately lost.

I don't talk to my family. I pull away from friends. Scott doesn't understand or have time to care. I hide from You. Why do I pull away if I seek love? That doesn't make sense! Why am I so confused? I'm lonely.

Just like Richie Sessions was talking about a restart button last Sunday -- I wish I had just that! I wish I could start my life over. I'd go back to college. I'd wait for the man of my dreams. I'd love You. I'd know you from the start. Oh, how desperately I want to feel Your love.

I feel further from You now than before. I feel so alone.

Please help me.

Jamie