I sat with a friend eating lunch today, discussing our five year plans.
As I ended with one I was sure would feel like it would never happen, he said, “A lot can happen in five years – in just a week!”
It didn’t occur to me until I came home how right he was. I showered, letting the warmth of the water relax me. My thoughts drifted.
Just a week ago I was in the most utter of despair. I was unable to stop crying and the only thing keeping me alive were the arms of a friend and Whoopi Goldberg. My world stopped spinning, my heart was broken, and I saw no light.
It was by far the most lonely, painful place I had ever been.
So it was a surprise when I realized that a week can produce much. I feel like a different person, with a much different resolve…with a much different heart.
God has touched me in way I never even dreamed. He has altered my life, my soul, my desires. He has brought into my life many wonderful people – people who love me and will not leave me.
And I realized that about Him as well. He will never leave. The definition of the love of God is one to which I cling. Unending, unconditional, strong, forgiving, and faithful. I love Him so much I can barely see fit to love anything else.
God, You are amazing. You have taken me from the saddest, emptiest place in my life and have walked beside me, many times carrying me, when I was too weak to continue on. Your love means so much to me and I hope that in all I do I glorify You and that You know my heart’s intentions and desires. I love You.
